There are lots of things i need to let out right now. like skimming fatty accumulation, a.k.a. oil, off the surface of your sambal, i need to skim all the negative thoughts and feelings out of my system. because it's getting really unhealthy, not to mention unnecessary storage intake.

I really wish bf was here right now, listening, really listening to me talk and let it all out, instead of being at vivo, leaving me at the cafe ranting out to my blog.
it's been quite awhile since we had meaningful conversations, both on the phone and upfront. and it's beginning to trouble me. a lot. we have daily conversations, but they're not as constructive or enlightening as they used to be. maybe it's the working with superficial, materialistic people that's got him changing. mix with the people, and you become the people.
it's draining me; disheartening me even more to know that i begin to think more and more everyday about how much longer this would go on; how much this would change me, change you, change us; how much more i can take.
Had a very throat-tightening conversation with Hafiz in class this morning. It somehow surprised me how he's gone through the same things as i was, only over a span of four years. and i went through it in 4 months. how nice.
i mean, i admit, we have been through quite a truckload in a few months, but that doesn't change the fact that i did go through it. and this conversation led us to a point where i think he, too, had a moment where he just wanted to let go.

anyway, the two of us ditched class today, leaving three others to stand on their own two feet. an abrupt wake up call, if i may call it. always depending on the fence to keep your vines up, what if one day the fence rots and falls. what will happen?


friends are like the weather, you'll never know when they'll change.
Dear bestest is going through a very rough phase in life - getting over someone. she is at a point where she contradicts, denies and sometimes, chinwag. and that's not good. why? because it goes against her ethics and mine. but the things people go through, sometimes changes them, drastically, slightly. but the little change she is going through is taking its toll on me. like the typical ex-girlfriend that hasn't gotten over her ex-boyfriend, she's taking up a very unhealthy hobby by still indulging in that boy's personal affairs.
being in the same IG isn't doing any good to her; being in the same school's making it worse.

babe, you have got to stop this okay. no one's asking you to get over him asap, take your time. but what you're doing now isn't helping you, but rather, making things harder for you. the advice anonymous gave you is worth listening to. he/she must care about you to want to give such advice. spending time with him in any form, wallowing in his dirt isn't going to help you get over him, but rather just dislike him more.
and it's very unhealthy, not to mention turning you into a nosy parker.
so stop it okay loves. =)

J.U.M.P's happening today. Part of me is really looking for it, part of me wants to leave school right away. Gahh. Kinda sucky when i can't make up my own mind. to the point where i'm making other people make up my mind for me. again, Gahh.

-off to emo somwhere-

Location: Galilee Cafe, Republic Polytechnic
Music: Apologize - Onerepublic


3:00 PM

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